"Lindsay, you're beautiful."
"Beautiful."
"You're sexy."
"Hot"
"Gorgeous"

It needs to sink in.
Why don't I ever HEAR it? Like my brain isn't interested in what other people think now, only what they thought then. Or, I care not enough about the people in front of me screaming how much they love me, and I'm more concerned with what a tool on the forum might say.
It's changed the way we view the world, this Information Superhighway. Its easier yo build a life here than it is for people to go out and have one. I'm trying to make a point to go one more walks, go outside more.. Go and get some fresh air.
It felt so good yesterday, just to be outside, aside from the facts that my hips were killing me. Its getting better but the right one is still messed.
I'm just hoping that this doesn't affect work at all.
I called and told them Sunday, I just have to pay attention to what the doctor said, as much as the White Spot Gods want to tell me that I'm letting them down or whatever, to even try to convey that is unfair and stupid.
I hate the company, but I love it too. I just wish Nat weren't dead. Things have gone all to shit because they want to CAPITALIZE. For God's sake, they even got rid of Buck
:( Poor Buck.

He was used and then thrown away when the time was right to ditch him. So He's mine now.
My very own mascot.
Three years of my life so far, and Buck's not alone. When they're done they'll find a way to squeeze me out of the union. I understand I am a liability at this point. Constantly ill, As well as pretty well permanantly injured. AIIIYA....!
*sigh*
It exasperates me to no end is all, to watch something that had a niche, try to become something that is EVERYONE. Cactus Club, Milestones...
People want White Spot from White Spot, not laa tee dah wine glasses, candlelight and steakknives.
If only Mom and pop shops still thrived.