Saddam Trial Adjourned For Investigation
He alleges that guards have been beating and mistreating him. Would anyone be surprised?
I'm hardly a fan of Saddam, Saddam has done way too much over the years for me to at all like him, but I am also not of the mind that the End justifies the Means.
Richard Clarke said it best on the daily show, "This is no longer about 'we shouldn't be there'. We're already there. as much as we would love to go back and undo that, there isn't time for what ifs. Now is the time to focus on getting out of there. Everyone seems to be telling you that if we leave, everything will fall apart. They'll be fine."
My main focus has always been getting them out of there. But there's only so much that I can do. I've marched. Oh God have I marched. And watched as the turnout dwindled time after time. Every new march there were less and less people.
The day we all marched against the Iraq War for the first time, the initial day that millions of people flooded out into the streets to tell the American Government that this wasn't what we wanted.. I haven't heard anything about that being a fantastic movement. A large chunk of teh world showed up and spoke together, and we were ignored.


Do they beat and torture prisoners?
They beat and torture their citizens.


Living in an American Ghetto IS psychological warfare.

Vortex of death.

Tree's.

Train.

I don't want to go to the mall again today, lest I feel like I've spent the day holding my ankles for the corporations.

I bought some tins with snowmen and reindeers on them, and I'm making a mass batch of oatmeal raisin cookies and rice krispie squares.
That's real love right there. Because I'm lazy.

But before I embark on the missions I have set myself for the day, I must eat something in hopes of curing the hiccups I have recently obtained.

Fucking hate hiccups.

So, I left the house at about noon and descended upon Lougheed Mall. I had originally planned on sucking up my pride and going to metrotown, but my better judgement must have prevailed.


So I got me a coffee, and I went to the dollar store. None of this $2.99 dollar store crap, a real Dollar Giant where everything is wonderful and costs $1 exactly. I bought some stuff that I shall not list in case of prying eyes... But I am pretty happy with the loot.
Then I braved WalMart... Hit a few other stores...
And saw Jeans for $20.. So I grabbed a size fifteen.
Too big
So I grabbed a size thriteen
Too big
So I grabbed a size eleven
And mosied on out of that joint.



FUCKING EH! I'm down two sizes.

After this happened, My ecstatic self was ready to go home, and I started walking around again to find the right exit. Who should I see, but Katt (Karolina) And as soon as I saw her, I knew she was unhappy.
so what could I do, But take her to teh porn shop. I don't even know how long we were in there. At least half an hour. I got Nathan something that'll be WAY TOO MUCH FUN!

and now I need to hit a zellers. And find something that will be Nathans bigger gift. I looked and looked for exactly what I want to get him, but......... No one is selling the right KIND OF thing that I want. There are lots of things, but not the right thing.

I went to Nathan's place for dinner last night. We had Bacon wrapped Sirloin Steak, mashed taters, carrots and corn. Oh! and coleslaw.
Dave and Michelle were there. David is so god damned cocky.
Pictures to come after Saturday I'm sure.
They have Santa's on the shelf when you come in the door. They were really cute.....

And then, of course.. Their tree was up and as I walked up the stairs, The scent of pine wapped me in the face.
On the buffet in the diningroom, they have a snowy little village.
Christmas magnets on the fridge.
I have never felt like this 4 days before Christmas. I was feeling like I had dropped out of august. "what the hell??"
On the drive home we got coffee at Timmy's. Earlier this month I was bouncing in the car, excited as all getup to be getting a Christmas Timmy's cup, with chidren on it... Now, as we rounded the same corner to enter the drive-thru I muttered, "I hate this Christmas Shit."
"Me too. HEY! I thought that you loved Christmas."
"Not this year. I'm fucking miserable."
"Is it me, I'm sorry if it was me..."
"No. It's everything else."
All the way home, I leaned my head on the headrest and stared blankly at thousands of glowing orbs of coloured light that the houses emit.
I felt nothing. The only thing that stirred in me was the disconcerting nature of feeling nothing at the most... or the Second Most important of my religious holidays.
We got home and I wandered into my room and laid on the bed. Nathan came in, "Are you gunna stay in here for awhile?"
"Are you going out there?"
"Yah, you can play on the computer awhile. I'll play prince of persia or something."
"Come here first. I want cuddles."
And so he laid down.
Time passed, time didn't pass.. and I began to cry.
And I cried and I cried until his shirt was wet.



So tonight we get a tree. And I hope, Just hope, that I will get there.
I have never felt this way before. I can only hope to get there.

US to take over Canada?
Highlights-


"So have the Canadians gotten a little too big for their britches?" Cavuto asked.

"Could our neighbours to the north soon be our enemies?"

Douglas MacKinnon, a press secretary to former Republican senator Bob Dole, also recently accused Canada of harbouring terrorists.

"Can Canada really be considered our friend anymore?" he asked in a recent commentary in the right-wing Washington Times newspaper.

"What other question can be asked when the Canadian government not only willingly allows Islamic terrorists into their country but does nothing to stop them from entering our nation?"

U.S. Ambassador David Wilkins warned Martin last week to tone down anti-American jabs or risk hurting bilateral relations. But Martin was unrepentant, saying he would "not be dictated to" by the United States and his hard line appears to be resonating with some voters.

While the offensive from American pundits isn't widespread, it still has the potential to affect cross-border ties, said Waldman.

"On Capitol Hill, the TVs are turned to Fox News. This kind of media environment is what the White House pays attention to," he said.

"That hostility is probably shared by a lot of people in the administration."

Well, That's alright
If that's alright..
Two thousand miles
But still
That's alright
And that's alright, if that's alright
I'll see you in the morning
If that's alright.

Please, take whats left of this heart
And use, please only use what you really need
You know, I only have so little
So Please
Mend your broken heart and Leave.
I'm not sure if it's raining today. I'm alone in the house, Paula is at work, Nathan is at work.. I'm going out for lunch with Jake. if he feels alright. He said he's got a cold.
I got up early for no reason, put on Jack Johnson.. Had some smokes. I need to go out and get more, but before I do that.. I want to get showered, and before I do that.... I want coffee.
But I'm too lazy to get my nekkid ass out of bed and do some shit.
Winter gets me so down.
So very down




Though, I must admit, There are things that will get me up and moving. Some good, happy music will do it. I haven't decided what yet, but I did just fix both my Beatles Anthology 2 discs, and my Nine Inch Nails - With Teeth album
Totally underrated release from them. I can listen to it straight through, and isn't that what one wants?


It is what I want, anyway.

Do you remember what it was like?


It's raining again. It's been awhile, so I don't mind.

You're gunna take what you can get
Sometimes things just hit you. I seem to say it a lot, but its the truth. Things just fucking smack you.
"Loving some silly piece of music so much that it hurts..."
You don't know what you do to me. You have no idea. Feeling nothing, I suddenly find myself in the grip of it, all I can do is turn it up and close my eyes. All I can do is wait until you're finished. Until you get it off your chest and you say what you needed to say. And like it was always meant to, it grabs something inside of me. Something so deep inside of me that I had no idea it was even there.
Absolution for your head....
I see stars, I see lines, I see dancing. I see me. I see us. All of us. I see it all, and I see it so clearly. For just a moment.... Just a moment passes... Years pass. I am still right here. It's now. It's everything.
I see glowing.
Black Helicopter

Merry Christmas