I'm downtown.... Got outta the house just to get outta the house. Nathan said he won't be by tonight. Kind of makes my whole day a little less fun... So I decided I'd go entertain myself down here. I do love the downtown core, even in the rain. And If I stay at home all day, I get so damned depressed.
Everyone's asking me how I'm dealing with the after effects of my fight with Terri, and I gotta say.. I don't feel anything when I think about it that even resembles sadness at all. Just anger. She thinks she's right, I mean.. she simply must.. And that in and of itself.. It blows my mind.
Eatin' Ramen on Seymour street... typing my little heart out.
Three dyas until I again get to see Mr. Good in concert. And this time with Nathan. And not with a bunch of fucking retarded drunken university students either. Just plain old fashioned concert going at the Commodore. And funny enough, Michelle bought tickets for the same night, so we're all gunna go as a team. Well... They're gunna meet me a little later than I'm planning on going down there.
I will, again, be first in line.

Mmmm... crazy eights all fucking day. Cannot complain about that!
Well. I guess you could, but.. I won't.


So...
I went home last night and hung out there..... Dropped off the rent, rearranged my room, and then Nate came home.
We had spoken on the phone earlier, while he was on coffee break, and I really wanted to know what was on his mind. He sounded deep in thought and when he arrived at my house he looked deep in thought as well.
The two of us lay in bed, speaking to one another about the happenings of the day, touching briefly on what we might have for dinner...



And then....
And then...


All of the sudden.. He was speaking about what he was thinking about.


It was glorious. It really was. And for us having been together for three months.... It doesn't make any sense. I can't even pull out the old "feel like I've known him forever" cliche because I have known him for a ridiculously long time for this to just happen now.
But while I understand that it won't be happening soon unless something drastic happens or changes..... The very idea that HE brought it up and not me.. It blows my mind.


He tells me that I haven't annoyed him at all yet. He said that he hasn't found one thing that I do that bothers him yet.
I thought it was funny because I'm certainly annoying some days.
But nonetheless, he insisted to me that I must be bored. MUST BE MUST BE MUST BE bored. I assured him that I'm not. It was a whole discussion. It's sickening and we know it.

I honestly never knew I could be in love like this.

So, I haven't been around much because I haven't got a computer and I haven't got much to say. Had a big argument with Terri this morning, which wasn't even an argument but an excuse for her to pretend she's the only person who cleans up, and that she's got it so much harder than everyone else does.
Honestly, she's so closed minded that by the end of it I had no choice but to storm out or I might have backhanded her.
Honestly. It's ridiculous.
I basically cut her off after she bitched for awhile and said, "What happens in January when the lease is up?"
"I'm out."
"Good."


If I had to look forward to the prospect of living with her for anything past that I think I might pack up and leave town just to escape such a horrible prospect.

But on the other side... The good side.. Nathan is wonderful and fantastic and I couldn't be happier with someone.
I got me a new job. I am the latest addition to the Coquitlam Joey tomatoes Team. It seems like a really great atmosphere. Much better than the old White Spot. And I'm excited. My first shift is on Thursday. we shall see how it goes.

My grandfather started Chemo last week, so in not too long he'll begin to lose his hair. they said it'll take two weeks for the hair on his head to start falling out and that his moustache will last longer. Its a crazy idea. I've never in all my life seen my grandfather without the moustache.

Hallowe'en came and went. We had a blast on Saturday night, and then another blast on Sunday....

Thats me with a cupcake in my mouth...

Michelle, The Greek Princess that she is..

After our icing fight

Annie and I

Myself.
I got pretty tanked. We drank Cranberry vodka. I figure, what the fuck. I only drank twice this year.. Why hold myself back. I might as well do what I want when I want to while I can, or so I see it.
So I have ten minutes left at the net cafe, and then I dunno what to do with myself. I could go walk around lougheed mall... But its not like I can buy anything.. and I don't want to go home in case that bitch is still there waiting to be nasty to me. Because I know she will be. This is all my fault after all.

Anyway kids. I want you to know that I'm doing well, overall... and that I will get back to posting regularly very soon. though I know I say that all the time. I miss this little corner of the web. ;)